still have dreams and nothing’s changed, all of my fears just rearranged into these shades of black and grey, concrete says more than I do these days I try to outrun this growing pain, the same one that taught me how to push everyone away and dig this grave, until my feet drag again the bed I’ve made is where I'll lay. Sleep walking through these worthless nights, sleep talking to just feel alive until this skin doesn’t feel so cold one day. The winter passed as I did, when I became the faults I hid. You ask, I swear that I am okay. “Am I okay”? The distance between you and me is much farther than eyes can see. I held my breath and forced myself to choke on it, in hopes that the past was one that I could forget. I searched the sea to find myself, but it was too late. I dragged the lake and everyone who cared just faded away.
Track Name: Foxholes
Well, I listened closely to hear what the ocean would say. It read, "80 years of stagnance, as if it matters any ways". "and if at first you don't succeed, staple these words to your head before you end up like me". I don't exist, but I wish I did. The tule fog it carries on, it haunts my mind like when I was young. There are mistakes we cannot outrun even after we are gone. I don't exist, but I wish I did. I shed my skin in front of you, I swear I tried to make things right, but my sorry's won't stop my dreams where I crash my car every night. If we are all believers in foxholes, then it's not for me. You can ask around about how I don't believe in anything, and why the sun won't shine for me. Have you ever seen black eyes like these on anyone else? It's not hard to believe, and I think you'd agree I did this to myself.